(a) A second meeting with Melinda, the psychologist from the HIV clinic and my friend. (There was a long delay between our first and second meetings this time, because her mother died; when we were walking out we paused in the summer sunshine and she told me, tears in her eyes but calm, about her mother and her death – a strong-willed, unafraid woman, who knew what was coming and was very direct about it.) Melinda wants to do some relatively simplistic/behavioristic stuff with me, which should be interesting; as I've said, the opposite of my old Jungian work, but such pragmatism seems useful now.
(b) Returned to the gym, after ages away; a nice return visit. They have redecorated and, although things don't look terribly different, the equipment is actually hugely different – and better; and a friendly, helpful sort of regular guy as trainer. And, thank heaven, the piped-in music is now far less obnoxious, far less loud.
(c) And made raspberry chocolate brownies just afterwards. (I note that there seems to be a disparity in values between (b) and (c).) They didn't solidify well – too many raspberries I think – but what the heck they've got chocolate and raspberries in them, so they're not exactly unappetizing.
(d) A wonderful hour-long chat with Mitchell in Los Angeles, who is huge fun and I miss him greatly. Perhaps we will get to stay in frequent contact over the summer. Tomorrow I will call Trisha on her birthday – another major, faraway, pillar of my emotional life.
(e) Arrangements for travel and seminars are lining up a bit more neatly; there is still too much to be done, but the structure and connection to what I want to do is a bit more under my control. And two trips are invitations, which makes me feel a bit more successful, less of a failure, less of a patsy to the system; which is of course good.
Summer, long days... maybe continuing to do things will get me – somewhere....
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