Still weakened, woozy today. Hard to describe, really – like a slight illness, but not with feeling actually bad... felt better in the afternoon, fairly normal in the evening.
All of which made a slight break in the cycle of thinking, second-guessing. As I am of course a rigid personality, some breakage in my cycle of anxieties and inertias always gives me a bit of a space outside them, and makes it a bit easier to see them... for instance, as I'm still planning on going to Spain in a week, my usual tangle of vague anxieties are starting to pile up about plans, finishing things, now compounded by hoping that I'm well enough to enjoy going.
Unfortunately, as pretty much always, though I am not bad at seeing my own dysfunctional mechanisms, I never really know what to put in their place(s). Therefore: continued confusions and inertias – but at a slightly broader level....
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