Possibly the worst mistake of my post-Pacific years – since 2002, that is; since I have no longer lived in my beloved San Francisco, in Los Angeles, in Hong Kong, since I was kicked out of Australia – is inanely watching television.
I used to watch television very little; since the collapse of my Aussie dreams, since I've been bored and at perpetual loose ends in a leftover northern periphery of island Europe, I watch it too predictably. Many evenings, several hours each evening. And it is even more pointless on an evening when I feel physically and mentally tired, as of course television in Britain, outside of certain few weeks when they are paying attention to what is being watched, is ridiculously repetitive: they buy a few seasons of the same series and show them over and over, and over.
No wonder I can't think clearly enough to keep up with Michael's discussions or his work...
But tonight, as I switch the television off around midnight as so often, there is a sense of relief, of closing a door. I pick up a complex, sophisticated, slightly eerie book, and go to bed; I won't read for long; but perhaps I'll try to redirect myself a bit, in a direction that may bring a few of my brain cells to life. And maybe there will be a fresh wind, cutting through the stale predictability....